Saturday, April 24, 2010

Pro-ana girls!

Listen up! I have a story for you all you girls out there, living with ana or mia. I beat them! And I am a happier person today. Yeah, I went back to my old weight, but it doesn't matter. It really really doesn't. I have learned to love myself for who I am, in spite of all the media messages that say that I'm not perfect because I'm not a size 0 or even less.

Girls, I was wearing a child's size 12. I weighed less than 90 lbs. Now, I'm back up to my normal 125 and I am feeling so beautiful. I have a boyfriend who loves me for me and girlfriends who accept me. When I lived with ana, I felt isolated, alone, weak, and out of control. I know, I know that you think, because I thought this way too, that the only way to gain control is by eating less, taking laxatives, vomiting, drinking lots of water, exercising, etc. This is only makes your life spiral more and more out of control!

So, if you are even contemplating the idea of recovery, please follow me. Talk with me. Let me know what's up in your lives. I'm not gonna push you into any sort of "standard" recovery path. But I can be a great outlet for you girls. I have been there, I have seen and walked through Hell. I know what it is like.

I love you all! I want to support you!